My practice today is finding beauty in my brokenness. I feel like a mess. Completely and totally all over the place. It’s been hard to find my feet on the ground. I’ve had a lot of shame surface. I could not be more confused. So much of what I though I knew crumbled. I’m questioning everything. Instead of running away, I’m choosing to run towards all that’s surfacing, diving deep into my shadows, fears, doubts, discomfort, uncertainty, and darkness. I was listening to a podcast with a therapist who said, “when people come into my office, I don’t necessarily want them to feel happy.. I just want them to feel alive” and that rang so true for me. It’s easy to want to hide, to flight, and to get small during these times, but the more I share with people who hold space for me to authentically show up as I am, the better and better I feel. To me, that space is the greatest and most healing gift in the world. Asking for help has been such a powerful shift in my life & I’m grateful for those who received me today! When grace is extended to me I’m reminded that I’m just a human being. I put so much pressure on myself sometimes. It’s okay to not be okay. Most times when I allow myself to feel the feels and break down, it also means a break through. I’m somehow finding a little joy in learning to love myself in this crazy place.
Rp @aceoftarot: #everydayoracle spotted at a local intersection today. It’s okay to be forced to stop, to find yourself with no other option than to really notice what is clouding your vision and your heart, and ask what those clouds are trying to teach you. It’s okay not to run away from the lessons just because they hurt to go through them. You will move forward again; keep your faith, whatever it may be. Don’t waste this moment by wishing to be somewhere else. 🙏❤️💛💚💙💜🙏 #oracleseverywhere#beherenow#innerwork