Picbear logo Browse Instagram content with Picbear

@lilgothpeep

Gustav Åhr 🐣

lilgothpeep

Pre-T⚧ Personal @deceasedboi Let me die. 17 yr old goth boy. 🌈 Ugly, cute and dying Gustav's legacy will live through this account

  • 1K Total Likes
  • 32 Tot. Comments
"To loosen the noose, keep it tight. Abusing the truth, that's a lie. Fuck boy with a ski mask think he gon' rob me blind. Fuck boy better think fast when he cock the nine. Fuck boy better... Fuck boy better sink back in that fucking spine, second-guessing crime. 7th Ward where I snort a slug and cross the fucking line. Yet another line inside the cup. Another line you should look up. Another line that shook you up. I signed the line for Lucifer.  5-9 'til I'm dead, aye. Bitch, I'm Grey 'til the death, aye. Never gave a fuck 'bout dying, no. Even when I was a jit, woe. Pop a jig, load the rig with that motherfucking china white. Fuck it if I die tonight, I'm gambling with my fucking life. West Bank/Northside 'til the coffin ride. Who am I? I am god, I am Basquiat Yung Kurt Cobain with the scarred veins. Mentally deranged, hear the crows say my name ($carecrow). I'm just wasting my time, I'm just wastin' my breath. Why can't I just die? Why can't I go next? Why we get no respect? Why I loved holding TEC's? Xanax bar on my neck, I pop 'em, pop 'em to death. This ain't no motherfuckin' trend, every day feels like the end. Feed me, feed me medicine, so I can't feel my sins." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"I smoke a bag of weed, all on my fucking own. And all them baddies all my favorite rappers rapped about Never made sense when them words played in my fucking house. Now I'm on the highway nearly passing out With my feet hanging out the sun roof, my hands holding your hands. Driving past the sunset, I know I wanna marry you. It's kinda unbearable and that's pretty overwhelming. The feeling is brand new, the feeling is brand new. But I still feel 17, it's like I just made MTV. It's like I just facetimed you for the first time last week. And that feeling will never leave. Different than all the highs my life hit a new high. The harshest of all times can't tell my family I'm bi. Can't tell my mother I'm gay. The hardest part of my day is wishing I was fucking straight. Life could be so fucking easy man." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"How long have you been smiling? It seems like it's been too long. Some days I don't feel like trying. So what the fuck are you on?  I think too much, we drink too much. Falling in love like it's just nothing. I want to know where do we go When nothing's wrong. 'Cause all the kids are depressed. Nothing ever makes sense. I'm not feeling alright. Staying up 'til sunrise And hoping shit is okay. Pretending we know things. I don't know what happened. My natural reaction is that we're scared So I guess we're scared.  No I can't really keep lying 'Cause I've been scared all along. I'm getting sick of sleeping in. While all my friends are popping pills And I don't think that they're wrong." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Heard you're skipping meals, losing sleep. Well, I've been doing the same honestly. Well, I look like a fucking walking corpse, girl. Say the words, "R.I.P." 'cause  My tolerance is going up And I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah And I've been abusing drugs. I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah. I need you to show me love 'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah. I need you to ride me harder when we fuck 'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, whoa. I'm getting numb to the feeling." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"So come rain on my parade 'Cause I want to feel it. Come shove me over the edge 'Cause my head is in overdrive. I'm sorry but it's too late And it's not worth saving. So come rain on my parade. I think we're doomed. I think we're doomed And there is no way back.  You must of made some kind of mistake. I asked for death, but instead I'm awake. The devil told me no room for cheats. I thought I sold my soul, but he kept the receipt.  So leave the lights on I’m coming home. It's getting darker but I carry on. The sun won't shine here, it never did And when it rains, it fucking pours But I think I like it And you know that I'm love with the pain. I think I like it." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Fuck you!  You, took what you wanted and left, like locusts. Everything I gave to you, everything that we've been through. You, bled me dry and then went, like leeches. Go, you got what you came for now leave, like vultures. Ripped apart in minutes, what was built in seven years. The ink scarred on your back, may as as well of disappeared. For as long as I remember you sold everything you owned, But now you sold our friendship, your on your fucking own. Sleep with one eye open (Because) Sleep with one eye open, cunt! If I had it my way id slit your throat With the knife that you left in my back. All this shame, all this guilt, all this regret, that's me. I'm inside of you And this is your world fucking falling apart mate. From the inside out, everything will fall apart at your feet. You've got hell to pay, yea you've got hell to pay. You better fucking bow, bow down to me, you better beg for mercy. Get on your fucking knees, and cry me a fucking river." It's my birthday. - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"There's nothing to see here, people, keep moving on. Slowly their necks turn, and then they're gone, No one cares when the show is done. Standing in line and it's cold and you want to go. Remember a joke so you turn around. There's no one to listen, so you laugh by yourself. I heard it's cold out, but her popsicle melts. She's in the bathroom - she pleasures herself. Says I'm a bad man. She's locking me out. It's cause of these things. It's cause of these things. Let's make a fast plan. Watch it burn to the ground. I try to whisper so no one figures it out. I'm not a bad man, I'm just overwhelmed. It's cause of these things. It's cause of these things. The crowd on the street walks. slowly, don't mind the rain Lovers hold hands to numb the pain. Gripping tightly to something that they'll never own And those by themselves by choice or by some reward. No mistakes, only now you're bored This is the time of your life but you just can't tell." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Here I stand, helpless and left for dead. Close your eyes, so many days go by. Easy to find what's wrong. Harder to find what's right.  I believe in you, I can show you that. I can see right through all your empty lies. I won't stay long, in this world so wrong.  Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight. Don't you dare look at him in the eye. As we dance with the devil tonight.  Trembling, crawling across my skin... Feeling your cold dead eyes Stealing the life of mine." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"She said, I keep on running, keep on running And nothing works. I can't get away from you, no. I keep on ducking, keep on ducking And nothing helps. I can't stop missing you, yeah.  It's like I'm her new nightmare, she ain't escapin'. It makes me feel a bit complete, yeah. Knowing someone you love don't feel the same way about ya. Memories they soon delete, hm.  A couple weeks no talking, I seen my baby. I've missed you so damn much, hey. I wish we could start over, I told my baby." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Bones in the water and dust in my lungs. Absorbing, archaic, like a sponge. The ultimate way, is the way you control. But can you stay if you detach your soul? Bury the present, and squeeze out the past. The ones who endear to never last. Chemical burns and the animalistic. I'm just another hard-line pseudo-statistic.  Can you feel this? I'm dying to feel this. Can you feel this?  Blood on the paper and skin on my teeth. Trying to commit to what's beneath. To find the time is to lose the momentum. You learn the lessons and immediately forget them. Automatic and out of my reach. Consult all the waste to find the key. Minimal life and the polysyllabic. I'm just another blank page. Push the button, pull the rage." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"As it all falls down, do I walk away Or do I stand my ground and accept my faith?  And there's the faceless cries, that twist my every dream. And almost every night I hear the demon sing.  Why are we going on this way? Why do we play these games in vain? Nothing's gonna break it down and build us back again. So why do go back that could leave this way? Black is the soul that's led astray. You're leading me to places I can never follow.  Happiness is found in the darkest ways. And as I searched around, I've made nothing but mistakes." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Pick me up. Been bleeding too long. Right here, right now. I'll stop it some how.  I will make it go away. Can't be here no more. Seems this is the only way. I will soon be gone. These feelings will be gone. These feelings will be gone.  Now I see the times they change. Leaving doesn't seem so strange. I am hoping I can find Where to leave my hurt behind. All this shit I seem to take. All alone I seem to break. I have lived the best I can. Does this make me not a man?  Shut me off. I am ready, Heart stops. I stand alone. Can't be on my own." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Burning the memories deep my mind. Burn down the structures that keep me alive. Tell me the reason you wasting my time. Tear down the walls that I'm buried behind. I never meant to be so fucking distant. When you're not right next to me, something is missing And all that I know is this is not my decision. And that's why I wrote this, I know that you'll listen.  I know that you don't understand. You know that I won't call again. I know that you don't need a man. I tried but we don't stand a chance." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Lightin' up the blunt while I'm thinking of you. Walking down the block. I ain’t whippin' the coup. Take another drag while I look at the moon. Young GPS I come equip with the route. I don't have to wonder cause I see the truth. I don't need love you can hear the proof. Break another bag while I feel the ruins. Start to look my way but I ain't in the mood. My closet's nothing but Harley. I ride hard without fallin'. Goodwrench on this deadboy. I rev the wheels now they foggy. Sponsors floodin' my inbox but there's one thing that they don't know. I stuff thick money in my thin socks And not yet to sign for no dough.  You don't wanna die with a guy like me. I know that you Got another plan. No you got another dream. So why can't you? Breath in. Exhale." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Even when I'm used for a long time. You get me through every dark night. I'm always gone, out on the go. I'm on the run and you're home alone. I'm too consumed with my own life.  Are we too young for this? Feels like I can't move.  Sharing my heart. It's tearing me apart, But I know I'd miss you, baby, if I left right now. Doing what I can, tryna be a man. And every time I kiss you, baby I can hear the sound of breaking down.  I've been confused as of late. Watching my youth slip away. You're like the sun, you make me young, But you drain me out if I get too much. I might need you or I'll break." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"There’s a god awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart. Ya it’s got a lot to do with having to finish what I start And at any second now I think it all might fall apart. ‘Cause there’s a god awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart.  There’s a devil in my brain with a pitchfork and a flame. Ya he likes to poke around and he likes to tell me things. And whenever I begin to feel like I might be deranged. I remember there’s a little shitty devil in my brain.  Oh I wonder what it’s like to be the type who doesn’t burn. Ya the kind who fights the good fight. Not the kind you’ll find fisti-fuckin-cuffin’ in the dirt." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Definition of the living dead. Got a dead bitch giving head. Tulip flowers growing on my bed. Rust and blood settle on my lead. Broken soul but i'm breaking bread. Head dreaded boy from Waggaman. Petey Pablo shirt off. On 'em swinging like a helicopter. Got it covering this chopper. Spitting out them yoppas. Got the drama with the llama. I can get you to Nirvana. Run them pockets proper. We create our own karma. Balboa out the magnolia. Northside soulja. Need the keys to the rover. Yung $carecrowa. You a paper chaser, you got your block on fire. Remaining a G, until the moment you expire. You know what it is, to make nothing out of something. You handle your biz, and don’t be crying and suffering. Ruby the fucking ape. Ruby the fucking orangutan. Mumbling nothing. Just the discussion of public destruction. I'm up in flames." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender
"Til death do us part means nothing if we're dead and as I sink into the earth. You'll be ripe inside my head. When I come out to dance, I'll just kiss you instead. You're my cold skin goddess aphrodite in red.  Punched a hole through a wall that I couldn't break. My knuckles bled out the sadness from a pain I couldn't take. When my stomachs warm, I can read the things you make, but when my eyes start to water I am a mistake.  I tried so hard to be the one that you would think about while you're away at school. I was never one to be remember. Why'd I think that it would change now?  The faint reminder that you're gone is growing. I can feel the sadness from my inside showing. When will you break this silence all i want is to be free." (Glitching edit creds are mine.) - - - - #idfk #anime #bands #alternative #emo #sweg#ptv #sws #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #ghosttown#crowntheempire #mcr #escapethefate#askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite#fallinginreverse #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #gbc #alltimelow#marshmello #ftm #transgender

Loading